28 APRIL 2011!!!!!!!

Awk........


HEP! 19th B!rThday,.....da besar yee....jd more matured tau..:)..jgn nkal2...jd rjin2 lg...n hope hepi sokmo2 tau...viel gluck ....sy syg awk sgat2 taw....sorieee.....sy pon rindu awk..hope you can be a successful person one day..n all ur dreams become true...one more time..


"Alles Gute Zum Geburgstag"
"saengil chukha hamnida"

Tentang K.I.T.A

Based on the title above(hemm,cam nk wat essay kn)..

sy nk gtau...sy sgat2 syg kn seorg lelaki nieh....dy wat sy jd sgat2 syg kt dy...dy  la org pertama n sy hrap org terakhir lam idup sy...sy knal dy tersgat la lame....bnyak ske n duka sy lalui...susah senang sentiase dkongsi..n ade one time..dy sendiri ckap..no more secret between us....yesss..no more...sy xboleh ntok lupekan dy even dy suh sy lupekan dy....soriiiee..but sy tau..Allah Maha Adil...

name dy sgat2 la senang nk ingat..yg bawa maksud Syurga.... nme sy maksud nye yg mulia...hemm..gabungan kn bgosss....

org yg sy cintai,kasihi n syangi ngan sepenuh aty sy nieh...agk jaoh dr sy...dy di Barat sane..sy plak d Timur..mmg gune lebuh raya Timur-Barat lar.....tp..dunia sgat2 la canggihkn...handfon ader...nk fb-ing...dy ckap blum mase ntok dy wat..but okay la...sy xkesah..i think it's better...umm..naty da sgat2 bribu2 batu jaoh..naseb la skype ader...xpon YM...sy xnk berjaohan aty ngan dy...eventhough i knoe ,nk jumpe sgat2 jaoh...bia aty sentiase dkat..1 hope from me,u..."INGAT DAKU DALAM DOAMU"....jgn 'down'kn diri,k...ingat pe awk penah pesan kt sy..n sy pesan kt awk...ur probs is my probs tooo,k...so kite share ,k...jgn diamkan,,,,luahkan.....

Awk....sy nk ckap.n nk list pe yg awk penah ckap kt sy n sy dpat tgok lam diri awk selame sy knal(habit)....actually i've one journal..dat everyting is jot down there,n sy ingat...naty awk pegy german naty..sy nk bg awk pgang bku nieh...ni antrenyer:

1)not too interested ngan bnda2 cam x berfaedah..

2)senang sgat mrh..tp ble d'cool down..a little bit ilang....

3)dun force you 2 do yg anyting you xske

4)manje...nkal...

5)sweet...(ble jd manje2)

6)sgat2 direct to the point ble nk knekan sy..hemmm...(nkl sguh)

7)nk sy jd good cooker ntok awk one day...

8)xske mkan kt luar ble da kawin..

9)pling nyampah kalu sy sorok kn sumting.....

10)jgn tipu awk!!(ni awk penah ckap)

11)ske sgat2 men bowling(kalu bleh2 ary2 kn)..pastuh men futsal,tenis(tiap2 ptg la kn)..yg len...Football,badminton..:)

12)want me to be the best 4 you...

13)pling la nk mrah n xske kalu sy tido lambat waktu mlam....

14)susah jgak nk bgon pg even alarm bunyi2...

15)penah ckap nk name anak if laki starting from A***** F**** or gurl F****A******...

16)nk simple2 je lam idup..

17)nk sy jd lecturer..(if rezeki dpat jd engineer jgak??)..tgok la cmane naty...

These all..my opinion n pe yg awk penah ckap kt sy...n seriously i can't live without you...i need you...
Nie sumer yg sy nk post...Allah masih bg sy peluang....sy sgat2 bersyukur,awk....

Awk....

SALAM.....guten morgen!!!!mownink!!!......(time posting nieh pg kn)....



Semalam,xtidor sgat pon...tgok2 jam kol 5.50 a.m..n dengar2 azan subuh sayup2 kedengaran....sory syer tido lmbt smlm....bkn sje2 mmg xbleh tido...awk pon tido awl..:(...semalam awk text syer suh read ur post..i had read it...but ader ckit la sy xpham....xplain la,awk...
N pg nieh,u wake me up....tengs yaa....lam sjrah kot tido xsmpi 2 jam..huuh..tp ptg smlam ,syer da tidoq da..:)...



           I miss you,Firdaus!!!!!!!!!
    
                I L**e you,,,,!!!!!

keputusan

aku ngaku...selalunya bukn semua kptusan memihak kt kte...kekdang tu tuhn sje je nk tnjuk kt kte yg bnde yg kte wt tu sbnrnye salah..pe bnde yg kte wt kt org tu,on the spot tuhn blas...bnde sme,sbijik...x tpu nye...nie bsed on my true story..memg ak ngaku ak da skitkn aty die...krane d sne,si die yg lme ak cntai mrane...x tpu,ak tetp sygkn die..dn ak lg suke kliu die jd istri ak,sbb ak lg nk nilai keistrian dlam dri die...n die sgt mengenli dri ak...sgt2 mngenali...i juz want to say,i am really2 sory...n i really2 damn miz u..i luv so much..although,sbnrnye ak da x nk ade pape kmitmen,tp sbnrnye ak sgt syg kn die..sbb ak,plan die hncur..ckup la die mrane..kli nie,plihn mktmad,insyaallah,jnji akn ak tunaikn...

Viel Gluck,awk....

Salam.....


diz post is on 1.57 a.m...19 april....I felt so2 sad n have cried 4 the whole day yesterday.....i miss u...sory.....i can't forget you.....

I wish u ..all d best in ur exam..i guess ur trial skang kn..sy xlupe ur  exam schedule....everything is jot down in my journal...wat yg bek2 k..i believe u can do it...i felt hepy when u hepy,awk...

I'm speechless...

I dunno how 2 xpress more bout my feeling now....i hope u read diz blog dat we create together.....i'll nver hate you...coz i still love you..but i can't accept wat u had done..plezzz....my days are not like other days anymore..i need a spirit to get my life..i can't accept diz!!!!!!!!!!..i still love you......i can't go on my days like before..i need my life with ur laugh .ur strength to me....ur motivation to me...how come i can live without u!!!!!!!i miss you so damn much!!!!!!!!...i dun eat the whole day...i can't forget you!!!!!

NAPE SY????

salam....my dearie blog....

Ak pon xtau ptot di update ke x blog nieh..tp xpe..coz actually i'm really love him..maybe he juz love me but  not giving lovessss 2 me...tengs 4 dat happen .....i'm really dissapointed on wat u've done....it is second time!!!manela sikap awk yg dlu.....i'm hurt with u....the whole day i can't sleep..n since 5days lg i dun eat.......npew nie la jd kt sy...u made ur decision but..u make people here hurt with u.....


no mood to writing more longer....tenkiu..if u read diz..i hope u can think more....assalamualaikum...

RENUNGAN BERSAMA....

SAlam....


Masih terngiang2 di memori sy ttg ini..ini jgak dy gtau sy sebelum ini...takdir yg boleh diubah dgn usaha kite sendiri..eventhough da tertulis di LUH MAHFUZ..tetapi setiap pe yg berlaku dgn doa n usaha pasti..n InsyaAllah ,Allah mnolong hambanyer...maka dengan izinnnyer dpat kite terima pe yg kite hendaki..dy gtau sy...npe xboleh berjaya??kite bleh ubah la...tu sumer Allah akn tlg...demikian jgak dgn takdir yg kte terima...mmg benar jodoh pertemuan di tangan Allah S.W.T...andai telah tertulid sumernye...tp keinginan hamaba NYA pasti dy akn mnolong  nyer....ALLAH MAHA ADIL..ALLAH MAHA SEGALA2NYA...  




Qadak ialah ketetapan Allah SWT yang azali terhadap semua makhluk
      Contoh: ketentuan rezeki, rupa paras dan umur
Qadar ialah pelaksanaan segala ketentuan Allah SWT sejak azali

  Ada 2 jenis qadak

    Qadak Mubram
 - Sesuatu yang ditetapkan Allah dan tidak akan berubah
 - Contoh: kematian, jantina, kejadian siang dan malam

   Qadak Muallaq
  - Ketentuan Allah terhadap sesuatu perkara mengikut usaha dan ikhtiar manusia

 

ASSALAMUALAIKUM W.B.T...

I'm talking about...

           

    Success doesn't necessarily create happiness,...
              but.....
            happiness in itself create the success....

Awk....

Salam.....

Awk...
ini luahan hati dr syer....
lame kite kenal...lme kite berdua....hampir lebih stgah dekad....
satu jangka mase yg agk pnjg....
malangnyer...satu hari syer terime satu berita yg awk kte....
"sory..pintu aty sy da tertutp ntok awk....maafkan sy"
*bgaikan nk baling sgala pe yg ade d dpan syer,,,,Tuhan sje yg tahu pe perasaan syer mse tuh...
Syer xpenah mintak sume ini terjadi....jaohkan la segala2 itu....e2 da berlalu..
skang nieh sy janji ntok jge awk....

Awk...
Hanye satu doa sy ntok hubungan kite..semoga kite kekal bhagia bersama...
bkan bhagia bersame org len...
Segala pintu aty sy da tertutup ntok sesiapa melainkan awk...
begitu besar kasih yg syer curah ntok awk...npe msih xdapat nk hargai sume e2...
 salah ke sy ngan awk selame nieh...
bukalah pintu aty e2 ntok org yg mnyanygi..bkan dibenci....
jangan ibarat yg dikendong xdapat,yg dikejar berciciran...
kasih syg yg utuh..kasih syg yang sgat ternilai dalam idup sy....
Cinta n kasih sy terhadap Allah,keluarga n awk....
Awk lembaran diari idup sy...
Penghibur sy tika sy sedih..
pemberi semngat kpd sy...
kalu awk xde....sy sendiri pon xtau pe jd kt sy...
ckuplah slame kite berpisah dlu..ckuplah siksa jiwa sy...
Sy xkuat tempuhi benda cam ini...

                                           
satu harapan n doa sy...syagilah sy sperti sy menyayangi awk....

Kadang-kadang.....

Kadang2....
Pe yg kite nk xdapat....kerna ia msih blum ditemui....
Tp...andai kite telah bertemu dgn ia,,,,maka tatap lah ia....
Jagalah ia...Belailah ia ngan penuh kasih syang...
bak kata pepatah...menatang minyak dgn penuhnya....
Mungkin satu ary ia xkan lg kembali....

Kadang2....
yg kite xmampu miliki,akn kesudahan nya akn kite miliki...
Yg penting dgan nawaitu kite yg seikhlas aty.....
Andai nawaitu yg ikhlas...ia akn pasti membwa kite ke arah kebahagian...
Umpama kebahagiaan dalam idup...sekali kite tewas dalam kbhagiaan idup...ia xmustahil akn tidak kembali secara normal.....
Tp....kite kene usaha..kejayaan untuk bahagia....untuk berjaya ...
xkan datang bergolek sewenang2 nyer....istiqamah la dalam mencapai kejayaan..
Sy ingat kate2 dy: Jadilah C.R.O (cathode ray oscillate) yg berfungsi ngan sebek2 nyer..jgan lah jd C.R.o yg constant...kerana ape???kerana yg constant itu tanda nyer..kite mati....kite xhidup.... (akan sy ltak dalam diri sy..one phrase dat i should follow)
Dy berkata lg..kejayaan yg dtg berterosan mungkin satu hari akn ader jgak kecundang walau sedikit...yg penting kite kne sedar........

Kadang2...
Impian akan jd kenyataan..
kerna...kite ade mtlamat yg pasti...

Kadang2.....
Impian hancurrrr..kerna ape??
kerna xder matlamay yg btol..
xder arah tuju yg sebenar.....

Kadang2....
Yg kite nk da ader depan mate..
Tp....kite xtahu mcam mane nk dpatkan ia...
Bayangkan....kite diberi emas permata..
Sanggupkah kite biarkan ia ditelan ombak yg bergelombang....
Mustahil kn!!
Mungkin terjadi ..tp......
Org kate...emas permata masih boleh dibeli ngan wang ringgit...tp kalu kite xder duet...how kite nk bli...

Kadang2....
REALITY can change to a DAYDREAM.....
DAYDREAM can change to REALITY....
idup nieh penuh liku....
tp..liku2 tuh bleh kite atasi sebenrnyer....
janji kite yg nak....

_________________________________________
sebenarnyer kn....sy nk jd yg terbek ntok org yg sy syg...
Boleh kew sy???..layakkah sy???...
Bertepuk sebelah tangan kah sy???
sy da cuba yg terbek...sy da berusaha....


To mine:......i try to be d bes 4 you 4eva....i hope u can accept who am i now...sory...sy post nieh ptg...after sy study,k...sy da xtau nk luah kt mane..time nieh.u tgah men tenis.....

bile kte tgk2 blik,rnung2 blik kn,sbnrnye stiap bnde yg trjdi tu ade baek nye..sbnrnye tuhan sje cmpakn kn blik bnde lme dalm idup kte...sbbnye??die nk uji kte,nk tgk smada kte akn ulang bnde slah yg kte pnah wt dlu tu smule ke ataupn sbnrnte kte da blaja drpd ksilpn kte yg lpas..tu ye sbnrnye..klu kte x serik2 n x blaja drpd pe yg pnah brlku dlam idup kte sblm2 nie,mkne kte nye kte gagl dlam idup..gagl dlam idup lbh truk drpd gagl dlam exm tau x..ak da besesgt da gagl dlam exm..tgk,idup lg kn ak skang..gagl dlam exm x brmkne kte bodoh..ye la,org slalu slah kn,'ala,xde nsib lg la'..jgn ckp org la,ak sndri pn slalu ckp mcm tu...sbnrnye nsib tu da ade da,tp ye la,kte yg x cbe grab nsib tu..lack of rvision mybe...or else,we hve been to far from Allah..itu mknenye tuhn bg isyart kt kte bhawa kte nie da jauh sgt da ngn kte..meang yg mndalam skit,sbnrnye tuhn syg akn hmbe2 nye..org yg slalu d uji oleh Allah adlah sbnrye hmba yg d syngi..tp jgn plak kte suke bile d uji n x wt pape plak..'ala,xpe tuhn syg ak la tu'..mmg la,tp bukn sng2 mcm tu je..bile kne uji,hapy2,lnsg x amk iktibr...tu da slah sbnrnye...so,pkir2 kn la...
salam

Thank YOu 4 the wish n advice....

Salam....

I need to xpress lot of what i feel now..sy sgat2 bangga ngan dy...sy sgat hormati dy...dy bg bnyak kte2 smngat kt sy...dy da jd one of my motivator...tp  sy nieh dgil yg teramat2....sy sush nk dgar nasihat org...ye..sy hati batu..keras cam besi..tp i hope sy leh berubah jd hati yg cam ais yg  ntok dgar nasihat org...but...when i read ur post....syer rase pe yg dy bgtau.....it is a truth....InsyaAllah..sy akn dpatkan pe yg dy hrapkan dr syer...i try to do d bes...of cos ntok syer ,family sy n dy....1 yg syer hrapkan...doakn sy semoga berjaya n get the best "uni" after diz.....syer akn focus on my study... actually my target is what u want too..sy xpndi pon..tp syer usaha,sy nk kn sesuatu..alhamdullilah..rezeki pd setiap org berlainan...sy dpat pe yg sy nk kt matrik b4 nieh..but sumtimes no 'rezeki' ntok kite..so jdkan ia sbgai hikmah...i'll try harder...

Awk......thank you for ur advices n everything..sy tau.."kun fa yakun"...tp ade usaha ,sgala nye akn sejahtera n pe yg nk insyaAllah termakbul..Allah akn tlg hamba-Nya.....to bloggers...amek la sbg renungan bersame..

Assalamualaikum w.b.t....

kekadng,pe yg kte impikan tu x dpt..laen yg kte nk,laen plak yg dpt..ak x tau la,tp ary nie ak ae laen..die da nk exam next week..ak hrp die dpt 3.8 and above..matrix,besela..klu x skor tinggi,kang tah mne2 bidg la die cmpk kn kte..ak plak tgh wt a-lvel..mak ai,lg pyh...tp sbnrnye x la pyh mne...stiap soaln yg ak da wt,smede exm ke,latihn ke,mne2 ke yg ak trnmpk,sume ak tau nk wt...sume ak tau nk wt mcm mne..tp time exm je,cnfrm ak kantoi..x de nsib la tu kot..ataupn aku yg revise mcm hram..ke x rvise lnsung..nk kte x stdy,stdy da..klu x,x kn ak tau sume bnde kn..ak lg suke kalu org ckp ak x pndai..sbbnye,nn org x de la espect pape dr ak..n yg plg pntg,klu tetibe rsult ak gempk gle,ak jgk yg d hormti..ye la,sblm2 nie,asyk exm je cnfrm fail..xyh tnye,org laen pn da tau,'die fail ke x'..bkn nye tnye,'die a ke x'..tp tu sume normal dlam dri ak..klu asyk cmerlang,x pnah ase gagl,rugi beb..skali ko gagl,mti kutu ko..time tu la,dtgnye shbt2 bru,iaitu dadh,rokok,alchol,sex dn lain2...sbb tu org tua2 ckp,blaja drpd ksilapn..klu ko x wt silp,mne la nk tau kn..pndai sgt pn sush,bodoh sgt pn sush..baek tgh2..usaha jd pndai,x usaha jd bingai..dr situ dtgnye kate2 prnsang,usaha tnga kjayaan...kalian rnung2kn la

sesuatu yg kte tidk dpt mnjngka

memang..tuhan mmg ade brfirman,kekadang kite tak boleh mnduge sesuatu itu akn brlaku...pada awalnye kte pkir prkare tu x kn trjadi dlam diari idup kte...tp bile di ats sne mngatakan 'jadilah' maka,kite tidak akn terlpas drpd bnde tu..wlaupn bnde tu bruk,tp x smstinye bnde bruk tu bruk..mentaliti kte je yg ckp bruk...tp sbnrnye tuhan kate bnde tu baek untk idup kte...stiap ape yg brlaku confirm ade sbb..pling pntng,mcm mne ktre nk mnangani msalah prmasalahn tu..tu mmg x de sape2 bley ajr coz sume tu brgntung kpade kte..bile bnde tu trjdi,aku lg skali,dgn ykin nye,mngatakn bhawa pngorbann akn brlaku..dr situ ksedihn,kekecewaan,prasaan hmba msti akn timbul..tp nk wt mcm mne..lumrh dn adt idup mnusia da tu..sng ckp,asm gram khidupn la...prkare tu x dtang skang,die akn dtg nnt...so,bg sesiape yg pham,rnung2 kn la..yg x pham,prkare nie sbnrnye 'double meang'..kalian brfikir la skit ye dn jgn lupe untk rnung2 kn..salam..

Incidents.....

Salam....hye.....
 jari jemariku tersangat rjin ntok update blog ri nieh coz da tensioonnn sgat....

Nk ctew ckit sal pe da jd lam minggu nie..lg2 ary isnin ri tuh....em nk tau pe????....BANGUN LAMBAT!!!!!!!!....lg2 lg 5 minit nk exam....mandi la jgak kn..naseb la bek...huhuh....da la pg nyer terbangon lambat....petang plak..ader org kasi bengang lg.....nk men tenis tp ader jew yg kacau daun kan....pe la naseb ri nieh....STUDY WEEK starting today!!!!!

The next day plak...emmm ni xpyah ckap la....virus bgon lmbat jgak la....nseb bek 10 minit nk exam plak...isshhhh....setan mmg la suker manusia bgun lmbat2....kejam btol setan2 tuh....exam paper chemy kyenyer...alhamdulillah..not bad.....nieh yg si dara..memerah otak study physics yg cam pe jee....xpham...hampeh tol...huhu....

Haaahahaha....lg2 kes bangon lmbat nieh da berjangkit kt syer...emm..pe la....mkin melarat plak tuh..Study smpi lwat pg..mmg la...posing kpala nieh memkirnyer,,..semakin rjin jgak la kn..nk exam da.haahah...tp org tuh lam musim exam da....tp pling lewat pon smpi kol 3 lbih2 jew..kang ader jgak yg kne mrah..ikowt arahan yeee...

Ader 1 petang yg hujan di Barat sane ..tp mendung jew di Utara nieh...sedang berjalan2....si teruna msg ,dy ckap dy bosan n tgah bace 1 buku..Title nyer: JANGAN BERSEDIH....(sort of motivational n Islam book)...ummmm...sgat menarik la tjuk pon...naty akn dpost in the new post later...pe isi2 nyew..but...I can make a conclusion from his readings dat...WE SHOULD CHOOSE THE PROPER WAY FOR OUR LIFE.......not only for duniawi but also akhirat.....ingat tuh...


So,da xtau nk merepek pe da..kang ader yg xkena plak...tu jew 4 diz post....

Assalamualaikum w.b.t....enjoy reading...:)

.....Renungan...:)

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